Rose Quartz

My holidays are finally here! WOOHOO.

But, to be honest, this 2-week-vacation doesn't really give me the holiday mood as there's gonna be tons of shit to settle when school starts. So, it's more of a getaway from all the stressful matters. 

Anyway,
My goal during this holiday:

• Tidy up my room/desk
• Exercise more often
• Sort out my closet (get rid of those old clothes)
• Stop overspending.
• Drink tea everyday.
• I don't really have a plan this holiday. Help.

I'll stop here for now and continue updating when I feel like it (when there's actually something worth posting). 

How's Life

"How's life?"

What am I supposed to answer? What kind of answer do you expect?

So I went back to AMKSS for the band's POP and played for the recollection band. Sight-reading some of the pieces because they aren't my JBF pieces (they were the batch after mine's). We had a combination of batches because they missed out recollection band during last year's POP which was kinda sad. I wanted to play all of my JBF pieces with my batch mates once again. But nonetheless, I got to replay my part for Freefall and it's so awesome. Nostalgia came back to me. 

Anyway, so a lot of people have asked me how I've been and I didn't know what kind of answer I should give them so I just said,
"Amazing."

What kind of answer were you expecting when you asked people that question? Do you want a summary of how my life had been since the last time we saw each other or perhaps you want the details of the major events I've been through ever since then or what? Can you be more specific? 

"Hey Rou Shan, how have you been?" "Erm, amazing." "Hahahaha. Okay."

Or maybe you were expecting me to give you a negative answer about how my life have been so that I can complain about it in order to continue on the conversation? In order to not be looked upon as someone who is awkward with me? 
Don't be that kind of people guys. If you want to have a long conversation with someone, at least be sincere and honest about it. Not saying the people who asked me weren't sincere though, I was just thinking if this kind of people exists. Maybe I just over-thought it. 

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Hey hey hey. 

Sometimes, I regret enrolling into a polytechnic because many a time being a JC student seems to suit me better. You don't have to worry about CCA points, presentations for 3 modules, what to wear every day, the heaviness and inconvenience caused by a laptop and so on. Sure, JC students have their own problems too and they may seem to be more difficult to deal with. Truckloads of homework, English essays, punctuality, promos etc. But, you see, JC have it all planned out for you. Although they force you to do homework; give you extra notes; compulsory field trips or camps or enrichment classes, these are all for you. Yes, I know, I sound really cliche but I've finally realised it. In the past, I thought all of that were just restrictions keeping you from being free. 

"What a pain in the neck for not to being able to do so many things." That's what I used to think and I still do, sometimes. 
Well, being a poly student certainly has it's benefits too! Being able to dye your hair, wearing whatever you want to school, significantly lesser amount of homework, amazing facilities and FOUR CANTEENS WITH GOOD FOOD. 

Like does JC even allow you to wear accessories. 
Anyway, it's obvious that there's so much freedom being a poly student compared to a JC student. However, the catch, is that you have to take care of yourself now that you're given your independence from rules and regulations. No one is gonna force you to do your homework, give you compulsory classes, much less forcing you to just study. You can fake your attendance by asking a small favour from your friend, copy answers during small tests and quizzes, and if you dislike studying, it's your call. Everything is up to you. No one is gonna take care of you. 

Of course my secondary school teachers have mentioned this and the difference between the life in poly and JC. And I realised that. That's why I chose poly instead of JC. Because I want freedom. I hate being bounded by some rules and have always wanted to do whatever the hell I wanted. But I missed out something. Now that I'm all on my own, who is gonna help me improve myself? And by improving, I meant adding values to yourself. 

In JCs, there will be activities which is probably a must-attend where you go to old folks' homes and do voluntary work or helping the needy. In JCs, you study about advanced concepts revolving the world of science, solving the world's toughest equation, improving your language skills and working your brain all the time. In JCs, everyone is studying like mad so as to ensure a bright future because where can they go if people don't see As on their A-Level certificate. In JCs, you're under peer pressure for a good reason, to improve yourself. You don't get that in poly. 

In poly, there will be people who care more about having fun than making themselves a better person. There's nothing wrong about having fun though, I would love to enjoy myself every single fucking day. Waking up and feel rejoiced to be alive, hanging out with my friends and go shopping. Honestly, who doesn't want that? However, this kind of life doesn't last long, your money is gonna run out someday if you don't have a source of income. More importantly, what have you accomplished. Have you traveled around the world and see not only the beauty of it, but also the nasty and dark side of this reality. Have you stepped out of your comfort zone and do something extraordinary. Have you taken up extra lessons outside of school and passed their tests on your own ability. Have you led a group of people and take responsibility. Have you changed someone's life. Have you finally realised how small and unproductive and pathetic you are. 

I'm glad I've found this out myself, without the help of teachers and friends. From now on, it's all about being independent and I'm gonna ace it. Bring it on, bitch. 

I'm Packed

I have so many things that are waiting to be settled or sorted out, and I'm currently trying to clear off as much stuffs as possible on my imaginary to-do list. God dammit. Blogging is one of them though, so I'm getting it done right now. WooHoo

Things that need to be done/sorted out:

• Finish Digital Logic online tutorial
• Pack 5 outfits
• Study for DAELN and DIGLG tests
• Remove my nail polish
• Study and understand all the Physics tutorials/lessons
• Get my INNOVA team members together to get work done
• My time management tomorrow (I can't afford to be late)
• Get contact lenses tomorrow
• My life
• Be more useful
• Productivity
• CCA points
• Money, bills, bank balance

So many things but so little time. 

Things that are done:

• Email to person-in-charge about C&I week
• Reply to Jun Wei
• Return my library books

I think that's all. This is pathetic. I gotta be more productive. 

Okay, here's the end to a boring post. Good bye.

Names

All this time I've never given a thought about having an English name, because I was perfectly fine with my name and it's amusing to see how many ways people can pronounce it. Muahahaha. However, the time has finally came. The time when everything falls apart; the time when nothing fits; the time when it all comes down to one decisive moment. 

• Rae/Ray
• Roxanne
• Roy
• Robin
• Shana (This is an actual English name, I'm surprised.)
• Raven
• Ripley
• Rosario

Yes, I'm going for trendier names. Hehehehe. 
Well, it's just an artificial name, so I don't have to put so much thought in it but once I've decided on it, I can't change it. :(

Sweet

One fine day, while I was heading to Northpoint from the bus interchange, a dude approached me. Even though I was clearly avoiding potential promoters by listening to music from my headphones. He came up to me and introduced himself. He was scouting people. People who are willing to go for commercials/advertisements. In other words, talents. 

ME?!

Why me?

Do you need an eye check-up?

However, it's not decided yet, I'm just another option. Hehehehe. False alarm, guys. Calm down. 

Here's a macaroon to soothe your hurt feelings:

Who are you

Who are you. Show yourself.

Hah, just kidding. You're welcome to view my blog! Thanks for coming! Hope you enjoyed your stay! :}